The room turns cold on my entry
chilled by the endless winter in my heart
which came one day when I was younger
and never began to thaw
The icicles of loneliness reach
they hang above this crooked form
this bent back scribbling at its desk
How I’ve tried to fake some warmth
stood outside and screamed at the sky
but this emotionless, empty heart
will never melt, or heal, or bloom again
All of the love I’ve acted out
inverts into hate and boomerangs
I can’t stand or leave this chair
I refill my pen and pour more wine
reclining under the weight of sadness
that I could never be blessed
with love, or loyalty, or warmth
all I do is write about my missing pieces
unsure if, or when, I’ll ever find them
maybe I am not deserving of saviour
but I’m still vain enough to hope…
Thanks for reading.